if only we weren’t two worlds apart… we could make this work. but its not my choice…. its yours thats ruining us.
this is the moment i have been waiting for… you, me, together, and steady. lets keep it that way:)
i know this is tumblr… but when Facebook says “whats on your mind” it doesn’t say tell me how much you hate your life and drama”, we all do… but we don’t need to tell the world. thats what friends are for!!
i think its sad when my mom yells at me for making her feel bad that she’s leaving me home alone with no one to hang out with…. but the truth is… i don’t have anyone to hang out with…. just my guy group of friends… and normally…. they are busy.
you know that you have a best guy friend when you tear up because he’s going to be gone for the next month and a half and even though you see him in school occasionally, you can’t hang out after school at any time…. it stinks:(
so i was walking to my friends house just to hang out one day. my girlfriend got brought up in the conversation and that reminded me what i should do for her for our six month. i figured i could just get her a dozen flowers and maybe some chocolates. so i went over to her house on our six month and asked her parents if she was home… they said no with a puzzling look on their face. i asked...
i can honestly say....
i can honestly say… you were the love of my life.
see im the kind of person who will, open a door for a person with their hands full of stuff, pick up a penny “tails up” and flip it heads up so someone can feel lucky for the day, give someone a call when i know they are down, say hi to people i pass on the street, get up off the couch just to get something for someone, pause my favorite tv show so i can actually pay attention to...
last night…. i found out the reason i have troubles dating. i have commitment issues. i want them to go away…. but i try and try…. and they never do. i want to and im going to get rid of them no matter what it takes. but first…. i need someone to help me.
if only we could have stayed together….. i know that we didn’t get off on the wrong foot… but i’m willing to change that. i wonder every night what i could have been like if we didn’t break up, how i could have acted, how happy i would be. the only thing is, i’m too afraid to tell you.
how come whenever i try to like someone and date someone i chicken out? im so scared that i will never be able to date… its happened so much that i dont wanna move forward that i dont know if i even wanna try anymore…. i am a heartbreaker to myself and them… why do i keep going… who knows… i wish i did.